Bio
Name: Daniel Robert Lance Big Plume
Nickname: Saturnyne
Birthday: May 3, 1980
Age: 26
Sun Sign: Taurus
Moon Sign: Sagittarius
Chinese Zodiac: Monkey (Born)
Height: 170 cm
Hair Color: Black
Eye Color: Brown
Status: Single
Favorites
Color: Blue
Food: Chicken
Animal: Cat
Anime: Sailormoon
Show: CSI
PJ's: Sweatpants/ T-shirt
Pokemon: Porygon
Website: NHB Radio
My Linux Desktop
Current Moods
Song: Dog's A Best Friend's Dog
Links
Official Sins Of Science Homepage
Space-Kitten.Org
Wing Commander CIC
Tears For Fears
Contact
Email: saturnyne1d@netscape.net
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Thursday, April 11, 2002
8:49 PM I know Jaymie can translate this. The punctuation is in the way. This Heat Emanates. Having Existential And Rhetorical Torrents Only Fosters This Heat. Everyone Only Notices Emulated Inner Love, Only Very Effectively. I'm Stupid. Bring Enhanced Imaging Non Generated Effects Near Roman Archetypes. Pretend Things Understand Real Editions Done By Youths. Another Night, Only The Hand Ever Rubbed. Oi, how I so want to be dead..........................
5:08 AM It is in this moment that I have realized... I am only alive because I don't want to hurt my mother, brother, friends, and most of all Jaymie, by killing myself. Otherwise, I welcome the sweet embrace of death...
Tuesday, April 09, 2002 2:11 AM It's been awhile... knowing Jaymie's luck, I'll have to open IE and get angry at the Space Kitten server because of its stupidity. Anyway... my mood has taken a turn for the worst in the last week or so. So badly in fact, that I've come to harming myself. I am feeling a bit better as I write this though, so I'm not going to finish this and then run to the bathroom and slice myself up. Don't worry about that. Jaymie has gotten into this new online community called Brunchma, at the insistence of her friend Jay. I, of course, have thought about joining too, but I won't for a few reasons. Firstly, I'd feel like Jaymie might see it as my own type of surveillance... that I'm spying on her, or keeping her at arms' length or whatever. Secondly, it's her thing... I have certain online communities she doesn't go to, so why should I invade her space? Thirdly, I don't think I'd be welcome at Brunchma. While they seem like open-minded people, I am too childish, self-pitying and self-hating to really think that they'd accept me. Knowing me, I'd start doing exactly what I did at Moonwings when I started -- sabotaging myself and trying to garner pity wherever I could get it. It's sad, because I hate it when people pity me. Anyway, I have to keep this short, since Jaymie has a boatload of work to do. I wish her the best in her work. I'm open to giving suggestions. Man, I want to see the Spider-Man movie. I love you, Jaymie.
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