Bio
Name: Daniel Robert Lance Big Plume
Nickname: Saturnyne
Birthday: May 3, 1980
Age: 26
Sun Sign: Taurus
Moon Sign: Sagittarius
Chinese Zodiac: Monkey (Born)
Height: 170 cm
Hair Color: Black
Eye Color: Brown
Status: Single
Favorites
Color: Blue
Food: Chicken
Animal: Cat
Anime: Sailormoon
Show: CSI
PJ's: Sweatpants/ T-shirt
Pokemon: Porygon
Website: NHB Radio
My Linux Desktop
Current Moods
Song: Dog's A Best Friend's Dog
Links
Official Sins Of Science Homepage
Space-Kitten.Org
Wing Commander CIC
Tears For Fears
Contact
Email: saturnyne1d@netscape.net
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Friday, May 17, 2002
9:05 PM I just opened my blog thinking I had Ocha's web addy wrong. Then I opened up my editing blog stuff and realized... Ocha's link isn't on my blog! It's on Jaymie's! Homework makes your brain melt kiddies, don't do it. All your base are belong to us.
8:28 PM Wee, fun. My head feels like an overinflated volleyball, and if anyone hits it, it's likely to explode. It's too bad that I used that as an excuse not to do homework, because Jaymie's going to be on the computer all weekend. Heh, and to combat this, I'm blasting Roland Orzabal's Tomcats Screaming Outside CD through my brain. Right now, it's on the song "Low Life". I think it was one of the singles. If I'd had money at the time, I could have purchased the single CD along with an autographed copy of another of his CD's, Raoul and the Kings of Spain (Remember kids, underline names of books, or anthologies. Chapters or parts of anthologies go in quotes). Lately though, Roland Orzabal's server hasn't been up. I suspect it's under maintenaince and such. It's been down for a while though. Hm. I had my first taste of Harvest Moon today. Man, that game is addicting, and you never realize you're addicted! I played the game for 2 - 3 hours straight without realizing how long I'd played! It's really fun though. I think it went well. The game looked kind of intimidating though, because there's quite a bit to manage, given that the days blow by faster than the lead vocal part in the song I'm listening to right now, "Hypnoculture". I have chosen Ellen. I give her a flower daily, and I shower her grandpa with fish. See, you get to woo the girl you like and I guess you get married and all that fun stuff. I have a dog named Cory (Named after a close friend back home in Calgary), and I haven't purchased any livestock yet. I suppose that's all well and good anyway, since just planting and harvesting vegetables seems to take half the damn day anyway. However, cow milking and such might be good for rainy days, since the vegetables get watered, and all the animals have to be inside. So then I'd have the whole day to milk, or I could get the better watering thingy, water faster, and then milk the cows. I don't know what horses are for. But, the chickens can be useful too. There are a lot of ways to make money, like selling your vegetables, the eggs your chickens lay, or the milk your cows give. If you give your animals lots of affection, they apparently give better things, resulting in more money for you. Man, I learned a lot more than I thought I did. And I have yet to look at a walkthrough. I don't think I will though. It's much more fun going at this game on my own. Oi, my neck hurts. Now I'm listening to "Bullets For Brains". It's a song about how Catholics (And/or Christians) went around killing people because they weren't Christian. "Bullets for the brains of the atheists" is a line often used in the song. Just changed the song to "Snowdrop". I love that song. I'm gonna go for now. My neck is about to cave in, and I have nothing more to say.
Wednesday, May 15, 2002 10:39 PM I changed my favorite song link on the side. It's a song whose energy I've been directing at myself. It's a good song.
5:11 PM Okay... might as well do it, since I keep opening the damned webpage. The night most probably represents my lack of awareness to certain things, or not willing to see things clearly. I just heard Alexi jump at that and go "Yeah, you dumbass!". Anyway, the chase may have to do with the fact that lately I've been trying to get rid of some behaviorisms. The dictionary I use says "On the deepest level,if a stranger is chasing you it may represent your chasing a part of yourself, the unconscious attempts to catch up with the conscious in order for you to become more aware of yourself and your own multidimensional nature." The chase is a major theme in this dream. I go from being the chased to being the chaser. Another thing I noticed is that during the entire dream, at no point was Jaymie ever beside me, or behind me. She was always in front of me. When the chase started, I was holding onto her hand tightly, almost like she was being the leader, and I couldn't keep up with her. This attests to stunted emotional growth... and I feel like if I don't grow soon, I'm not going to be able to catch up with her at all. I'll end up being a symbol of the past, and she'll leave me behind forever. And then I found out she had been "taken" and suddenly I was left to chase her. The dictionary says that if you are the one doing the chasing, then it usually points to agressive feelings towards said person, or trying to achieve a difficult goal. Well, there are certain truths to both, but the meaning of a difficult goal trying to be achieved stands out more. I'm trying to change and grow so I can keep up with Jaymie. And unless I can find the faith and just jump right into it (the trampoline), I'm not going to get anywhere. That's what the dream is saying... "You're not growing, Daniel. And you won't unless you learn to have faith and just jump into things. You can't think everything out, and you can't always be doing things for others. That is what causes your inability to grow." How does having blind faith and just jumping into unknown situations and taking risks enable me to grow? Everytime I have, I've ended up hurting someone. Including myself. That's what happened with Jeanine. At least, to me. I had the chance to just let things flow how they were, and to just have fun and share it with someone. Instead, I got scared and bailed out -- the easy way. I'm such an inferior person. At least when it comes to knowledge, growth and well... other things. [Edit]: You know what the worst part of the trampoline was? I didn't have faith in it after having seen others jump on it and survive. I'm so disappointed in myself.
4:49 PM I had quite an odd dream. Well, odd in that it was unexpected. The content of the dream was actually rather normal. I found out that I had developed spider-like abilities, a la Peter Parker in the Spider-Man movie. I don't know if this included wall crawling, super strength or anything (Neither were demonstrated in the dream), but I did have the natural ability to shoot webbing. There was a point where my family and myself were staying over at someone's house, and a doll kept scaring me in the dark, so I picked it up and turned it around. Anyway, after a bit of a precursor to demonstrate that in this dream, I did indeed have spider powers, the story began. It didn't get far though, because my body wanted to wake up. But here's what happened. I should note that before the beginning of the dream, story had developed that had basically gone that Norman Osborne was chasing down Jaymie for some reason. The reason wasn't revealed, but she was apparently important in something. One night, Jaymie and I are chased out of her house by Osborne's paramilitary squad, and Jaymie, my brother and I manage to escape out the front door. We run as fast as we can down the street trying to get away, and I yell at her to turn left when she reaches the end of the street while I turn around and slow some people down with my webbing. I rejoined with Jaymie and my brother, and we continued running, making the proposed left turn. We came to the corner of an intersection, which in real life would be the road Fairfax. Jaymie screamed as a bunch of vehicles whizzed by (for no reason by my count -- unless Osborne's vehicles were among them), and we turned to keep running and finding a place to hide. We ended up in a rather secluded forest-like setting, running across a wooden catwalk of sorts. It was here that I realized that I couldn't use my webbing anymore. Everytime I tried, someone else ended up doing it. For instance, I'd try, and my brother would end up doing it. Anyway, the catwalk wasn't suspended like those rickety old wooden bridges, but it was constructed just like a catwalk made of wood. We kept running, until we came to a certain unique section of the catwalk. My brother kept running forwards, probably trying to get away. There were two ways to continue. I could jump downward, and hope that the flimsy trampoline-like apparatus below me wouldn't break and cause my death, or I could make a simple turn to my left, and run down the part of the catwalk that everyone else was. Jaymie suddenly turned to me with this evil look on her face, and with a casual attitude, said "well? What's your choice?". She smiled to taunt me as she laughed, then turned and ran across the catwalk without me. I don't know what, but I had the impression that she had been taken over by Osborne, or had been working with him all along. She had led me into a trap. My valiant effort to save her had now turned into a chase. I didn't take the "trampoline", and ran across the catwalk. That's when my dream ended. I guess that means I failed the test. You see, as I was writing this, I was analyzing it for symbols. The 'test' I refer to is the choice that Jaymie gave me: take a risk, have faith, and just jump, or take the way I always do; the easy way out. I don't know. The reason I didn't jump was because I didn't have faith in the apparatus, and I didn't want to die, I wanted to keep Jaymie safe. I think too much. Maybe I should get out my dream dictionary and put a more full analysis here. I think I'll do that. eh. suddenly don't feel like it.
Tuesday, May 14, 2002 2:49 PM This is kind of like three entries in one. #1 Stupid world. Anyone who knows me well enough would know that since I was about 15, I've been basically waiting for death. A heart attack, to die in my sleep, someone to drive by and kill me, or something like that. And as it stands, and with the way things are looking, that's not going to happen anytime soon. It's especially hard when I look around me and realize how many people have invested emotional attachments to me. My mom, my brother, Jaymie, Ocha, August Moon, my friend Cory, Ruke, and a host of others, including a new person I met named Jeanine. It's not harder to want to live, no. It's harder to want to die. All of these people are important to me (though one name is at the moment debateable on that), and I would hate to hurt them to that magnitude. I'd hate to have to sit there in the afterlife, unable to do anything to console the pain. I feel pretentious for saying that everyone would hurt or cry if I died, but for those closest to me, it's become clear that it's the truth. Especially from Jaymie and my family. I don't know... I'm just wondering when this ride will be over. How the hell did I make it to 22? What will I be like at 42? Will I ever be 42? Ever since February 13th, I've been thrown into this abyss of time, where nothing is certain, and no definitive answers can be given. Not even by my own self! And I hate that, and I don't know what to do about it. But that's not the point I was trying to make. It's just that while I was hoping for death, the world was almost spiting me by getting more and more people attached to me day by day. When I was 18, I wanted to die most of all. And then I made a host of new friends, and I met Jaymie and Becca, and Lynn. I wanted to go just last month... and I couldn't, because I thought it might put Jaymie in danger, so I came back home. I hear people say I should live for myself... and I'm alive... but I'm living for you people. No, it's not a bitter statement, it's fact. I'm alive right now because of all of the people who have been special in my life, and because of all the people who still are. And while I have been waiting for death for too long to just dismiss it right off, maybe this realization will change that wish into something better. #2 I've decided it's time to tell you all about my Mortal Kombat comic movies. They started as a thought, months before I actually wrote the first one. I thought, "well, I've been drawing these funny little fights for Jaymie with stick figures representing Mortal Kombat characters. What if I did a movie-type thing, and did a long story instead of just short little fights?". After letting the idea grow for a while, I started planning it. It was kind of convenient too, because Jaymie was feeling down around the time that I started drawing the first one, and I wrote her the first chapter as a present. I was hoping to cheer her up. I don't think I did, at least not for long, but I was glad to give her something of myself without expecting anything in return. Here is a rundown of each "movie". Mortal Kombat: At the time, I had no idea there would be a sequel. I just crammed this one full of fights, humor, heroes and villains. The basic story? Well, Shao Kahn is going to use Sindel's spirit to take over Earth Realm, but for the time being, he's in his palace on a mountain in Outworld. The heroes, Liu Kang, Kung Lao, Sonya, Jax, and Kitana ascend the mountain to stop him. This one contains a side-story about Sub-Zero trying to help his friend Smoke discover his true identity, and return him to his human form from his cyborg form. It also featured the popular secret characters Noob Saibot and Jade. This is the most bare-bones action episode of the bunch, I think. Mortal Kombat II: Sorcerer's Rising: Jaymie maintains that this is the best of the series. I've been hoping that all subsequent "movies" would somehow be a step above this one, but it's the best one. I'm inclined to agree. In any case, the story of this one is that an unknown force has resurrected Shao Kahn's minion, Shang Tsung. Shang Tsung, able to traverse through all realms, goes to the realm of Edenia to try and kill the queen, Kitana, and take over all realms for himself. The heroes, Liu Kang, Kung Lao, Sonya, Kitana, Reptile, Johnny Cage and Rayden, all try to stop him. This has a lot more story and dialogue than the first one, and is thus much more expansive. This had a more interesting plot development in that Johnny Cage starts out as a victim of mind control, and is only identified as a good guy because he is coerced into working for Shang Tsung. The only thing missing from this one is a truly suitable ending. I was getting lazy, and felt near the end, and I was kind of hurrying the project. As such, the ending lacked a lot that will be included when I re-write the entire series. Mortal Kombat III: The Queen's Tournament: 10 months after the events in MKII, Kitana gives birth a child and commits suicide (the reason being that the child is a product of an... impure conjugation). Only Reptile knows what happened, but Kitana has sworn him to secrecy on it. To decide a new ruler for Edenia, a tournament is held. The heroes enter, but can't be coronated, so they enter to help with the decision process. Suddenly, Kitana's child grows to an adult, crashes the party, and the heroes chase him into Outworld, where they ultimately end up trapped after sealing the inter-realm portal there for good. The theme of this was "Sex is only pain in disguise". It also did a lot in the way of making Reptile a more loveable character. It also featured some old villains (with a lack of new ones) risen from the dead to combat our heroes. Featured heroes were Liu Kang, Kung Lao, Sonya, Jade, Reptile, Noob Saibot and Johnny Cage. Mortal Kombat IV: Outworld: This one takes place in the realm of Outworld, mostly. The heroes from the last story (Minus Noob Saibot) are trapped in Outworld with Kitana's progeny, and are trying like hell to get out, while keeping their god-like supervillain locked in Outworld forever. This one contains a side-story about a war that erupts in Edenia when a magical crystal starts generating evil centaurs that attack the people of Edenia. This story almost totally features Reptile, and makes him out to be the hero at almost every turn. I think it's this one that made Jaymie and myself start loving Reptile so much. He acts as the guide for the heroes through Outworld, seeing as his species is from Outworld. This also brought up a little more about the portals. There are two in known existance. One that leads from Edenia to Earth, and one that leads from Edenia to Outworld. The three realms are not all inter-connected. Everything is connected to Edenia. Mortal Kombat V: The Reaver Prophecy: Kitana's progeny, sealed in Outworld, is given more power by the gods of Outworld. He has taken on the mantle of "Reaver", the destroyer of all realms. This is part of a prophecy that says that if someone from Edenia and someone from Outworld have a child together, it would result in the destruction of everything. Kitana's kid, now able to create his own portals, opens one between Earth and Outworld, and invades with a vengeance. He closes the portal to Edenia to prevent any help, and corrupts Rayden. He intends to call upon the Maelstrom spell, Apocalypse. The theme of this one was the destruction of relationships. No, not relationships breaking down, the actual and physical destruction of people in relationships. Rayden and Kitana's progeny destroy many people who are in love, and destroy families and friends, and babies, and everything. This one also gives Reptile a memorably heroic moment, once the Edenians re-open the portal, but that only happens in the alternate ending. This one was supposed to feature Nightwolf in addition to the heroes from the last two installments, but I couldn't think of a creative way to include him. Mortal Kombat VI: The Khyron Expanse: I haven't written this one yet. The story so far is that Kitana's progeny, who according to the alternate ending did not succeed in destroying everything, decides to try opening portals to undiscovered realms. He finds one and calls it Khyron. For his own amusement, he tries to take it over through Mortal Kombat. Reptile finds out, and alerts the heroes, and they go to stop him. I'm basing Khyron on the World of Ruin from Final Fantasy VI (MKVI, FFVI, get it?). I'll let you know how this one goes. #3 I am really scared of myself right now. Lately, I've been acting completely out of character. It's like I've stepped out of my skin, and into the body of some stranger. It's not anything to do with killing myself, it's just really scary. I don't like this person. He's a user, and he likes it. I don't. You see, I met this woman named Jeanine. There is a great deal of sexual chemistry between us, but I'm not one for casual or meaningless sex. And yet, more things that are out of my character have happened in the last few days than have happened between me and women in the last few years, if you don't count Jaymie. My point is, this person really scares me and I don't like him. I don't want to become him. Besides... I'm not in love with Jeanine, I'd just be using her. Granted, the way things are now, she'd be using me just the same, but I don't want to use or be used. I feel very dirty right now. I love you, Jaymie...
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