Bio
Name: Daniel Robert Lance Big Plume
Nickname: Saturnyne
Birthday: May 3, 1980
Age: 26
Sun Sign: Taurus
Moon Sign: Sagittarius
Chinese Zodiac: Monkey (Born)
Height: 170 cm
Hair Color: Black
Eye Color: Brown
Status: Single
Favorites
Color: Blue
Food: Chicken
Animal: Cat
Anime: Sailormoon
Show: CSI
PJ's: Sweatpants/ T-shirt
Pokemon: Porygon
Website: NHB Radio
My Linux Desktop
Current Moods
Song: Dog's A Best Friend's Dog
Links
Official Sins Of Science Homepage
Space-Kitten.Org
Wing Commander CIC
Tears For Fears
Contact
Email: saturnyne1d@netscape.net
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Friday, December 12, 2003
12:57 AM I am on the edge of tears. Tonight, I talked with my brother and mom about my birth, my mom's life, and my brother's life. In those talks, I realized that both my mom and brother have been through a lot in life, more than I. They've pulled through to become better people than they were. They've grown stronger. When my mom was pregnant with me, she lost ten pounds. She was in her own jeans until about 8 months into the pregnancy. After I was delivered, she had lost ten more pounds. My birth was a tragedy in itself. Not only was my mother toxic, unable to take care of herself, and in pain all the time, but I nearly died during my birth. My heartrate was drastically dropping off during the labor, so I was born through Caesarian-Section. My dad didn't think that I was his child. To this day, I'm sure he still doesn't think it, but that's not the point. So it's a miracle that I'm even alive to make this entry, if you want to look at it that way. A few years later, my mom went back to Ben (my "dad") whom she had left before I was born. When she was pregnant with my brother, she had terrible morning sickness that lasted all day. She had heard of an anti-morning sickness drug that was supposed to be safe from causing all birth defects. She took one pill and left the rest of the box on the kitchen counter of Ben's house. She went outside for a while, taking me with her. No one else was over that day, and Ben was away, probably at work. Mom was the only one home. When she came back in with me (I was all of 2 years old at the time), she found the box missing. She searched the house top to bottom, backwards and forwards. The box was nowhere to be found. To this very day, the three of us believe that it was a spirit of some kind who came in and took the box. Why? Because the drug was found to cause birth defects. My brother's life had been saved, and he wasn't even out of the womb. My brother's birth was easy. Right from day 1, they knew he was going to be a C-Section, so as soon as it was time for the birth, he was born. Mom was still toxic and sick when she had him, but they weren't as unsure about the survival of both the baby and mother this time around. It wasn't until a year later that mom left Ben for good, and came to live here in Calgary. It then begs these questions from me. Why was I almost dead, when my brother was saved from medicine months before he was even due? Why have I always been in the background adding to the scenery while my brother and mom take on the important tasks in the world? Since my brother WAS saved from a drug that would have deformed him in one way or another, does that mean he's more important than me? Does this mean that I'm just garbage? Refuse, excess waste? Does it mean I'm nothing? Or do I just have some higher purpose that I don't know about, which means that I have to be tested a little harder than I think is fair? I don't even know my purpose in life. I love music, but I'm not very good at it. What am I supposed to change? Am I just here to exist? To just be? Or am I destined to actually affect something in a worthwhile way? I'm 23 years old and I feel like I'm 2.
Monday, December 08, 2003 6:35 PM I stole this from my good friend Kristine. Mwahaha. Take THAT, establishment! 1.Full name: Daniel Robert Lance Big Plume 2.Nicknames: Saturnyne, Enygma Angel, Danno, Dannie, Danull 3. Eyes: Dark brown 4. Height: 5' 7" 5. Hair: Black 6. What happened to 6? I think Kristine broke it. 7. Do u like to sing in the shower? I used to. 8. Do u like to sing on the toilet? Dear GOD no. What if I'm doing number 2? People will think I enjoy it too much. 9. Birthday: May 3, 1980 10. Sign: Taurus 12. Sex: Male. But otherwise, yes please. 13. Righty or lefty: righty 14. What do you want in a relationship: Intimacy, monogamy, cuddles, romance, FIDELITY. 15. Have you ever cheated? Yep. 16. Marital status: Single 17. Do you have a car? If I had a car, consider me an alien clone. 18. What kind of car do you have? I think it's a cross between air and nothing. FAVORITE QUESTIONS: 19. Movie: Spider-Man 20. Song: Right now? "Can You Forgive Her?" and "Home And Dry", both by Pet Shop Boys. 21. Band/ singer: Tears For Fears 22. TV Show: The Simpsons 23. Actor: Tom Hanks 24. Actress: Michelle Williams 25. Food: Chicken 26. Number: 8 27. Cartoon: Family Guy 28. Fave disney Character: Donald. Duckies rule, Bizzatch. 29. Colour: Blue LOVE LIFE ETC: 31. Do you want to get married: One day. Just haven't found wife material. Yet. 36. Do you have a b/f or g/f (who): In Kristine's words, "not yet, but pursuing someone (she knows who she is >P~~)" 37. Do you have a crush: Yep. EITHER-OR (PICK WHICH ONE YOU PREFER) 38. Music/TV: Music 39.Guys/Girls: Girls 40. Green/Blue: Blue 41. Pink/Purple: Purple 42. Summer/Winter: Winter 43. Night/Day: Day 44. Hangin Out/Chillin: Depends on how chilly, and WHAT'S hanging out. 45. Dopey/Funny: Funny 47. What school do u go to? I don't go to school... 48. Have you ever taken drugs? Yes. Tylenol, aspirin, venlafaxine XR. Illegal drugs? Nope. 49. What's a major turn on for you? Proportionate, healthy. 50. How far would you go on a first date? Not very. FRIEND QUESTIONS: NiCeSt: ....Jennifer FuNnIeSt: ...John StRaNgEsT: ...Wes BeSt pErSoNaLiTy: ...Cory BACK TO THE OTHER QUESTIONS: 52. which 5 people do you trust and are open with the most? John, mom, Kristine, Danielle and Cory. 53. what do you think of soul mates? I think they're neat. 54. Is it right to flirt if you have a bf/gf: I dunno. Do I LOOK like Flirty McFlirt to you? 55. what was the last thing you cried over or got teary? I don't know. I was just laying in bed one night and started crying. 56. Anything about guys/girls you don't get? Yes. How come women can objectify men, but when men objectify women, we get a slap in the face? 57. Are you happy? No. 58. Why? I need to go back to school. 59. What's an object you can't live without? Some sort of device that produces food in an infinite capacity. 60. Love or lust: Love. Lust doesn't last nearly as long. 61. Silver or gold: Silver. It's prettier. 62. Diamond or pearl: Diamond. Jumi are pretty too. 63. Sunset or sunrise: Sunset 64. Have you ever gone skinny-dipping: Does bathing count? 65. Do you sleep with stuffed animals: Yep. My Chrissy-given ducky is the best. 66. Do u have any piercing? Nope. 67. What colour underpants are you wearing right now: Grey. 68. What song are u listening to right now? The soundtrack of Resident Evil Code: Veronica X. 69. What are the last four digits of your phone number? 7916 70. Where would you want to go on your honeymoon? Montana. Ronan, specifically. 71. Who do u want to spend the rest of your life with? Someone. 72. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex: Eyes. 73. Sport? I don't play it, but I love hockey. 74. What makes you happy? Video games. 75. What's the next cd/s you're gonna get? Phil Collins - Testify. 76. Do u wear contacts or glasses? Nope. 77. What's the best advice given to you? Anything done with love cannot fail. 78. Have u ever won any special awards? I won some kind of music award in Jr. High... 79. What are your future goals? Hopefully I'll figure that out. I think it'll have to do with music. 81. Do you like Funny or Scary movies better? I like them both the same. 82. On the phone or in person? In person. 83. Hugs or kisses? Yes. 84. What song seems to reflect you the most? "Can You Forgive Her?" by Pet Shop Boys. 85. If you died tomorrow who would you leave everything you own to? My brother. 86. Do u have any enemies: Nope. 87. What is your greatest fear? Making enemies. 88. Would you rather be rich or famous? Yes. 89. What time is it in Albania now? Time for bed. 90. Have you ever been in love? Yes. 91. Have you met santa? Yeah. I was the one who told him to buy Microsoft stocks. 92. If E.T. knocked on your door holding up a peace sign asking to use your phone what would you do? I'd let him in so he could use the phone. 93. Last time you talked to the person that you like: Uh... about 20 minutes ago. 94. Do u have any pets? Yep. Four cats and a dog. 95.Whats your email address? saturnyne1d@netscape.net 96. Last time you were depressed? I'm depressed right now. 97. are you an alcoholic? Dear GOD no. 98. Who sent this to you: Ripped it off Kristine's LiveJournal. 99. What do you think of this person: Very cute, hope I'm worth her time. 100. Do u want your friends to write back? Yes. Yes I do.
1:08 AM I spent this weekend over at Sam and Jenn's place playing video games. It was a lot of fun. We played Super Smash Bros. Melee for a few hours. That game is super fun with four players. So is Mario Kart Double Dash. It was a good weekend. I also played F-Zero GX, and ended up beating the first four grand prix cups on the hardest difficulty. It was quite a surprise, since I used to be horrible at the game. Now, since I've been completing the Story Mode, I claimed the Master difficulty trophies in about 2 hours. All that's left for me to unlock now are six hidden parts, and three hidden cars. That's kind of scary, but still a ton of work, since the missions that unlock the parts and cars are horrendously difficult. But possible. For some reason, the idea of Jaymie and Jay crossed my mind tonight, as it has the past few nights. I guess it's affected me for the worst a lot more than I thought. I require more time to process this information before I can really rant about it though. Well, it's past midnight and I'm quite sleepy, so I'm gonna go to bed. Be well.
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