Dear Blythe


Dear Blythe,

I know that I did was wrong. I can assure you I’m in jail paying for it. I held in a lot of anger for a long time and as the first step in the healing process I want to apologize. I know that doesn’t undo what I tried to do and I don’t expect you for forgive me. What I did was wrong and you are right to hate me, I don’t even expect you to do more than crumple this letter up and throw it away, but I have no one else to write to and I just wanted you to know I’m sorry. With the help here in [Redacted – Department of military intelligence] I know I can become a better person.

Again, I’m sorry.

Fred L. Williams.


Dear Fred,

I am not going to say I forgive you, because right now I really don’t. You were going to shoot me with a grappling hook! I don’t even know how that works! But I am sorry that stealing Class President from you drove you insane. I needed it to get in to college, and I didn’t even stay in college. I guess that’s what I deserved? But not being killed. That was going too far.

Please don’t try to do that again.

Blythe~<3


Dear Blythe,

I didn’t ask you to say you forgive me. I don’t expect you to ever forgive me. I have been asking myself over and over again why I took it that far and I have no answer. My therapist here in the prison suspects that I have unresolved emotions that were projected onto you and next Tuesday we begin to try and explore them. I don’t like shirks but A) it’s state mandated and B) I really want to be a better person. Sorry college didn’t work out for you. It wasn’t what I expected either. Never though I’d end up making prototype equipment for the military, but I guess I’m not anymore. I hope you also enjoy your work. You deserve to have some happiness. We all make mistakes and for what it’s worth I forgive you for high school.

Fred L. Williams.


Dear Fred,

It’s easy to be a better person. You just don’t try to kill people! It’s too bad you have to see a shrink, though. My boss made me go see a counselor after I had a panic attack at work, and I hate it. He keeps trying to tell me I have childhood trauma, and unresolved issues too. But I am pretty sure anybody would be freaked out after that reunion.

I am sure when you get out of prison you’ll be able to find a new job. Business won’t let good scientists go to waste. And it’s not like you -actually- killed someone.

…did you?

Blythe~<3


Dear Blythe,

No, I haven’t killed anyone. I’m an engineer not a soldier, or a killer. And I’m sorry to hear what I did shook you up that badly, but I don’t think you have to worry about it happening again, as it happens I make a terrible murderer. It was a last minute decision and the ejection system didn’t even work. I was drunk and I really thought you had ruined my life. You didn’t, I did when I decided to steal government property and take out a ten year old grudge on someone who had probably forgotten about it.

If fact I don’t think you ever have to worry about seeing me again. Even when I get out of prison in ten to twenty years I’m still an attempted murderer and convicted felon. Good people who I’ve hurt are probably better far away from me even if I’ve started looking forward to mail day here in case you’ve written back.

Fred L. Williams.


Dear Fred,

I’m glad you hear you’re not a crazy murdering serial killer type person. And please don’t think you are the single reason that was such a bad day for me. Really, it was just the icing on the cake of an already terrible day. You really didn’t even scare me, I was just so upset someone hated me enough to want me dead. Were you there for the whole reunion prior? Apparently plenty of people think I am the root of all evil. Okay, maybe I exaggerate a bit… but I really believe most of our class was slightly insane.

For what it’s worth, I don’t think you are as terrible person or even close to the worst of the bunch, even if you did try to kill me. I wouldn’t be writing to a lunatic.

Blythe~<3


Dear Blythe,

Maybe then our next reunion will be behind bars. A funny thought. While I am happy I wasn’t the reason you had a terrible day I’m still sorry I made a bad day worse. I still don’t think you’ll ever forgive me but I do not think you are a bad person. OF you really were I don’t think you’d write to a prisoner who tried to kill you.

Speaking of prison Dr Summers says I’m making good progress and is willing to sign a release saying I’m not a danger to society if I keep it up. Ths will not get me out but it will look good at my parole hearing in a few years that I’ve progressed this quckly. I don’t think that would have been possible without letters from outside, so thank you. I’m really trying not to be a lunatic anymore.

Fred L. Williams.


Dear Fred,

Happy Birthday. I hope you like this card and aren’t too offended. I designed it myself at work! I thought the picture and little jail rhyme was amusing. It’s good that you are making progress with your doctor. I hear that parole can come up really fast if you are well behaved enough. The worst you did was make the government mad. MY doctor keeps telling me I am an emotional ticking time bomb and he thinks I need more sessions. I think he just wants to get paid more.

Blythe~<3


Dear Blythe,

The card was great. I showed it the Dr. Winters forgetting she would have already seen it. They read all my mail in case I didn’t tell you. We had a session today and to be honest I don’t feel to great afterwards. We had a breakthrough and I’m not sure if I like the implications. I won’t tell you the details but it might be best if we didn’t send each other letters anymore. For both of us, well for me.

Fred L. Williams.

Addendum:

Mr. Williams is experiencing a break that he has been subscribed medication for. I believe it would be for the best if he continued communication with someone from outside.

– A. Winters.


Dear Fred,

It’s okay if you don’t want to continue writing me. I, for one, kinda like having someone to talk to that isn’t giving me ‘Poor Blythe’ looks. It’s also kinda funny and ironic you’re the one I’m talking to. You know, we never really talked to each other during high school. Outside of the presidential debates. So I don’t know a lot about you. I bet you don’t know a lot about me either!

I told you that college didn’t work out for me, right? And that I work at a Greeting Card company as one of the writers! Once I was engaged, but that didn’t go anywhere. I like sunflowers a lot, and I always wanted to take a vacation to Holland.

What did you do after High School? (Besides plot revenge?)

Blythe~<3


Dear Blythe,

Hey, I know it’s been a few feeks but I just wanted to write again and in answer to your question I went to colledge, graduated and started work in Sony’s robotics projects. Learning Japanese was tough but I was barely there a year before I got a job offer from the US government and it felt like my life had become a spy movie. So I came back and got set up with the military working on a bunch of side projects for the Future Soldier program. That’s public knowledge so I hope the cencors doen’t blot that out. Mainly in an old wishlist of projects scrapped in the 60s but with out modern materials are possible. I really enjoyed it, I felt like Q in James Bond only my gadgets would be used by real soldiers and save thier lives and not allow a rich playboy to show of to women. I really screwed that up. Right now I’d be lucky to get a job as a auto mechanic.

That’s prettymuch the story of Fred Williams. No real friends, no love life (not that that was ever a posibility, you know what I was like even in high school) and I didn’t even want to go to the reunion at first. I sure as hell won’t go to any more. Sure people want to see me less now than they did at the last one. I’m not allowed anything alcoholic but if I was I would raise a glass to never seeing any of those jerks again and as soon as I get out starting a new life. I hope I get a nice parole officer. Dr. Winters says she’ll find one for me who I should get along with. I never expected therapists could actually be nice people. Our school councelor always creeped me out.

Once I get out I’d like to meet with you though, if you haven’t got a restaining order. I promise not to try and kill you. I want to make amends and not just for the trying to kill you part, for the tears and years of thinking you were the devil too.

Fred L. Williams.


Dear Fred,

I’m so glad you finally wrote back! I was starting to get worried. I mentioned to a coworker about your letters and she spent and hour telling me about what happens to handsome men while in prison. Hopefully you’ve not fallen prey to creepy inmates.

You’ve had a really interesting life so far, Fred. I don’t know why you thought it was ruined at all. It all sounds kind of exciting to me. Why wouldn’t you have a love life or friends? Then again, maybe you’re lucky not to have a lot of people in your life after all. Being surrounded by tons of friends and family usually means a bunch of nosey people always getting in to your business and telling you how you’re not living life right. They’ll tell you you’re sad, or lonely, or depressed, and never really ask you about your own opinion. Kind of like therapists except you can’t fire them!

Surprisingly enough I don’t have a restraining order on you. You really didn’t scare me much, I told you that. But I admit that being in the same room with you does make me a little nervous. What if I came to visit you in jail first? Just for peace of mind!

Blythe~<3


Dear Blythe,

I am in a military prison and I hold many secrets in my mind. They don’t have me mixing with the other prisoners a lot of the time. I smeel in my own cell, I shower in my own cell, and while I eat down in the cafateria but there are guards everywhere and it’s no more than sixe to a table. I get a bookshelf in my room and sometimes get to play chess with either Dr. Winters or other inmates. You don’t have to worry about me being the pretty guy in jail.

And I was always focused in school. Pushed to perform and get into the best colledges and univercities available. I never spoke to anyone and was only beating you for class presidency because I knew what the class wanted and how to give it to them. Which is also why I ade a good engineer. But when it comes to expressing what I want I’m a total failure. I don’t do small talk and don’t have breasts. I didn’t really want friends either so it seemed to work out.

If you’re going to visit you’d need to life a petition with the military to do so then they’ll contact you and tell you where to go. I asked Dr. Winters and I’m allowed visitors. Apparently I’m not a danger to anyone which is good. I should get that on a t-shirt. You don’t have to though. Not if you think it would be awkward after I tried to kill you.

Fred L. Williams.


Dear Fred,

Awkward you say? I’m sure it will be! It’s not every day I get to visit a prisoner in a super secret military jail. On the bright side, since you made such a terrible villain, you could try your hand at being a hero once you’re out of jail.

In the mean time, good news! I have permission to visit you, but they are going to send someone to take me there. I get the feeling they’re going to throw me in the back of a van or blindfold me or something. I’d ask what sort of secrets you know for them to make such a big deal about the place, but I don’t think I want to be living in the cell next to yours.

I have been practicing baking lately. I’ll bring you an experimental cake.

Blythe~<3


Dear Blyth,

You’re actually coming, this soon? I didn’t except that. ANd yes it will be awkwards but at least it’s in a cotrolled enviroment. You can’t get much more controlled that a military prison. I mean here we have military police and while normal police are trianed to use a pointed gun as the threat without putting their fingers on the trigger these guys adn federal agents are trained to have their fingr on the trigger when they point. Interesting what you leard when you work in the military.

But yes, you will be safe and I won’t try t kill you again. Tororow’s session I’m going to ask Dr. Winters to talk me through dos and dont’s. She’s hinted she might want to do a practive meeting with her playing you. But if you’re bringing cake I’ll wantto save some for her if you don’t mind. I’ll have first in case you poison it for revenge. I don’t think I have had cake in month. They let me ask for something special when I behave well but I almost always ask for curry or pie. Reminds me of home, you remember Rachik who cooked in the diner off Dawnview Cresent? I guess I’ll see you soon.

Fred L. Williams.


Dear Fred,

In just a few days my military escort will be here. That’s kind of exciting! I wonder what my neighbors are going to think when I am escorted away by men in suits. Or will they be in uniforms? Camoflage? I’m not sure how these things work. Either way they’ll probably think I was taken off to jail or the funny-house or something.

I had another episode at work. I think my brain deliberately picks the worst possible moments for me to suddenly have a meltdown. I’m not the freak-out type, you know? But I was thinking about that girl who tried to kill herself and a lot of the stuff she said about everyone. And some of the things Calvin screamed at me. And things you’ve said too! I don’t know, I guess I started worrying I affect people in bad ways and it all just sorta snowballed from there. It’d be nice if it happened at home when I’m alone and not in an office with twenty people staring at me like I’m going to do something crazy.

Since you are going to share the cake with Dr. Winters, I picked out a really easy recipe and I am going to test it first! It seems like she’s been a really great doctor for you, and I’d hate to give her a badly burned experiment cake. She might tell me to stop writing!

I hope you’re doing well, Fred. I’m looking forward to talking to you in person.

Blythe~<8


Dear Blythe,

So soon? I’d say I’d clear my schedule but my scedule is controled by the people who approved the visit so watch out for military police. That’s either be in civies or camo with white armbands. I really have no idea, you might even ride in a humvee. This morning Dr. Winters came to my cell and asked me if I was really ready for you to visit and that the final choice had to be mine. I said that I want to meet you and appologize in person. So I’m sure you’ll be picked up soon. I hope this letter gets to you in time.

Another thing Dr. Winters said was she was going to stop having our letters read, and only if I say anything to her will he read what we have written, so bake a file into the cake so I can escape! Just kidding, I don’t want to escape. I know I’ve come a long way and I not a danger to anyone but I’m where I should be. Trying to escape would just mean I’ll never get out of here. I’ve started building models too. I have the kits brought to me and have all the craft suppies in my cell. They even let me have a proper craft knife. I guess they don’t think I’m a real threat either. It’s great to have something to do with my hands and there is a castle I assembled in Dr. Winters’ office. I’m looking forwards to seeing you.

Fred L. Williams.


Dear Fred,

I’m not sure I’d call it “so soon”. How long has it been since we were in the same room together? That whole process of your arrest and trial took almost a year by itself. And then almost another year still of us writing letters. Or maybe it’s just because it doesn’t feel like soon -enough- to me. I am kinda looking forward to seeing you, despite all the crazy stuff. I’ve tried to keep in touch with a few of my old friends after the reunion, but adult life pretty much has everyone already moved on. Not that I miss those days, but well, I guess I don’t really know where I was going with this! Blythe then isn’t any different from Blythe now. I guess there is just less people around and no where to go these days!

So no more read letters, huh? I guess that must be good news! I keep forgetting that your letters were being screened. Now I’m a little embarassed about blabbering so much stuff. Hopefully your Dr Winters won’t be meeting me there with a straight jacket and locking me up in the loony-bin.

The next time we talk it will be in person! I hope you -are- ready for that, Fred! But I bet it’ll be interesting no matter what happens.

Blythe~<3

Dear Blythe,

Two things. First my reunion invite arived, thank you very much for forwarding it to me, you’re the best. Second, and this is very big news so sit down and get a cup of tea, I’ll wait. Ready? Good! I got parole! I’m super excited my parole board were really nice and Dr. Winters was on it. I showed them all the job applications I had ready and spoke about space, and you and they didn’t even deliberate they jusy congradulated me. Dr. Winters promised to keep in touch and they even found me an apartment and I’ll be walking out of here on Monday. I’m siding here boxing up my models (I hope you liked the dragon tower I build form the ones you game me that I sent you) and writing to you. Theres not much time between moving in and the reunion but Dr. Winters said I’ll be there if she has to drive me there herself! Ironically though I think my arresting officers will have the honor. But I’m out! I’ll see you soon!

– Fred.


Dear Fred,

Yay! I’m so glad your parole was approved. I told you there wouldn’t be anything to worry about. It makes way more sense to have you out and working for them than in jail. I had to see Doctor Winters today for something completely unrelated and she gave me the good news about your job and aid you are settling in well.

I’m not sure if this letter will get to you in time, but I hope so. Barbara Jenkins sent out an email to everyone on the reunion committee and honestly now -I- kind of want to commit murder. If I weren’t so excited about seeing you there, I seriously don’t think I would bother going at all. I AM kind of glad she made the dress code so fancy strict, cause it’s going to be fun dressing up!

I have to repaint my wall now, because as it stands there is now a tower being flown through space by a dragon and getting shot at by a shuttle. Totally cool, but kind of silly. Maybe some time soon you can come over and help me build a shelf for these models so they’ll stop terrorizing each other.

Blythe~<3


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